Reflection - for my husband...

We were challenged with quite the questions at church this past weekend. Here is my response, I now pass along that challenge to you my friends.

Imagine that this will be the last day of your spouse's/good friend's life. Tomorrow they will be gone and you will be alone. What will you miss most when they are gone? The things you wold miss are the things you actually appreciate about them. Tell them now, before it's too late. 


To my wonderful husband, just thinking of this brings tears to my eyes. Yet I see the importance of realizing what you mean to me and how I should be reminded to let you know that more often. If you would be gone tomorrow, today I would tell you over and over how much I love you. How thankful I am for God's plan that brought our paths together. We both know I had a rough path getting to you, but your kind and forgiving heart welcomed me into your life. Praise God!

Though saying goodbye to you so early would be the hardest thing I think I could ever endure, I would thank you for 8 wonderful years of you being in my life.
I would thank you for opening my eyes and challenging myself in what I believed. I would thank you for your support during my struggles - with school, with losing weight, with forgiving myself, with losing my job. You've been there for me through tough times.

But oh so many good times I would thank you for. Our trips to Chicago and Kansas City. The week in Minnesota with your family. Leading worship with you has been the most amazing experience. I would thank you for being such a wonderful father to Eloise. She loves you so much and would miss you so, so much.

I would miss your humor. Good thing I've learned to make my own puns after all these years. Every one would remind me of you. I would miss your passion. For music, for soccer, even your passion for video games. I would miss your hugs and kisses. I would miss falling asleep mid-conversation and realizing in the morning that we didn't even say goodnight the night before. I would miss our Saturday grocery store adventures. I would miss cooking with you. I would miss watching Fringe and Glee and Celebrity Apprentice with you. I would miss you making waffles on the weekends. I would miss the way you look at Eloise. The way you say her name to get her to turn her head to you with a big smile. The way she'll make you smile right back, sometimes with a tear in your eye.

So much more I know I would miss. I'm glad that chances are good that you'll be here tomorrow and the next day. I never take you for granted. I thank God everyday that you and Eloise are my family. You are loved.